tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48458746478449117622024-03-13T23:42:06.173-05:00my journey to a new life..this is my path on the road to a healthier lifestyle..i have 175 pounds to lose and i intend to get it off..would love to have you join me on my road to a healthier life.Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.comBlogger192125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-28414399415169313942017-01-16T01:43:00.003-06:002017-01-16T01:50:46.214-06:00My Journey Through Life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Well this is me Kelli Campbell now, and I have been married now for almost 5 years. I have gone through both of my parents passing away and my aunts and my cousin who I was very close too. I have a great husband who is always right here for me whenever I need him, and will do anything for me. I am a stepmama and stepgrandma to some great kids who I honestly wish I could see more often ,I guess every parent is like that. My sister has now moved away to be closer to her son and grandkids and I miss her everyday. She was like my second mom.<br />
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My husband and I both need to get our weight off, and we have needed it for a long time. I dont know what happened but it seems as though I am bigger than I was when I started this weight loss several years ago. You would think I would have lost all of this weight by now but I guess I am just like everyone else I like to eat and drink pop. Now I know drinking pop is bad and it will eventually get my heart but Pepsi is like my all time favorite drink and its just so hard to get off of it. I am going to though, because if I don't I will not be around for as long as I would like to be. I am 48 almost 49 now and that age is starting to get to me now. I am a photographer as you can see I take pictures of everyone and everything and I have since I was small. I love taking pictures of my family so you will probably always see a picture or two of my family on here. I thought I might try blogging again and see how it helps me with my weight. I know the support really helped alot before and now I am just as big or bigger than I was then.<br />
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This blog is going to be about my journey through life just as it says, the ups and the downs and all that goes with it. I am trying to face my weight head on and will need all the support I can get a hold of .If you want to come along with the journey please feel free to do so. Thank you for reading and stay safe!<br />
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Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-81603755399467622282016-01-30T23:43:00.002-06:002016-01-30T23:57:58.727-06:00wow this has been a long time!<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Wow it has been a long time since I have done this, and now I am back to trying to lose weight all over again. I have gotten married since I last wrote this blog and both of my parents are now gone which isnt easy to go through. Day to day I have to keep telling myself that losing weight is for my own good, and day to day my brain just doesnt listen. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I am sure my nephew sean is probably tired of me saying I need help but for some reason it just doesnt come off as well as it does for men. I mean really ladies dont you agree..this weight is like its stuck like glue haha..I am trying to really get my photography business going now and was doing really well, until it just sorta fell and it seemed that no one wanted to have their picture taken anymore..</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I am almost 50 now boy that hits hard..I didnt think I would be 50 someday..I remember when I was a little kid and 50 was old..I never thought I would reach 50 but three more years and I will be there. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Today wasnt such a bad day as far as food goes, I never eat a lot but thats what sean always says is that you have to eat little meals all day. The only thing is I dont always have the money to buy the food so we dont always have a lot of food. Tim and I he is my husband, we are getting ready for his surgery on monday morning, he is having a complete knee replacement and will have to learn to walk again. I hope he doesnt have any more pain, he has been in enough for many years now please say a prayer for him for monday..thanks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I am going to go ahead and get off of this and see what other websites I can look at tonight..lol you all have a wonderful night!</span><br />
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Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-70604188649133434702012-02-15T11:54:00.002-06:002012-02-15T12:02:04.469-06:00needing to quitI feel like i am a food addict.<br />i need to quit sugar. <br />i need to quit pop.<br />i feel like if i dont, i will die.<br />i am tired of feeling unhealthy.<br />i am tired of not being able to walk.<br />i need to walk.<br />i need to be back to being like i was.<br />im tired of being tired.<br />im tired of feeling old.<br />im 43 and i feel 73.<br />my back hurts all the time.<br />my legs hurt all the time.<br />im just tired.<br /><br /><br />NOW WHAT TO DO!<br /><br /><br />I am going to walk.<br />i am going to lose weight.<br />I am going to gain control of my life. <br />I am going to feel good again.<br />I am going to be normal again.<br />I have to be.<br />I am going to do it this time!<br />I am going to change my life for the better. <br />I am going to make better choices.<br /><br />I AM GOING TO DO THIS<br />I AM!Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-87009079048058657482011-12-02T08:34:00.002-06:002011-12-02T08:50:07.658-06:00thursdays blog on friday!this is for yesterday, i got home from class too late and didnt feel like getting on the computer. i am here at work today doing my blog, i havent got anything to do right now so i thought i would write yesterdays blog. yesterday was not a good day for my concentration. i just couldnt or didnt focus on what i needed to focus on. <br /><br />i got up sick and stayed sick most all day. i didnt go to work and stayed asleep for quite a while. when i did get up, i ate very little food yesterday. what i ate going to class and coming home from class made up for the whole day, i ate junk food, i drank regular pop, not one but two bottles, one right after the other. it was bad, i even got a regular pop for this morning to bring with me, its just a habit i can tell its a habit, if i just got pepsi max or sprite zero it would be better for me.<br /><br />i just didnt concentrate, maybe i was just nervous, i am in spanish class at night and i am not doing as well as i would like in this class so maybe its my nerves, but i did do something good last night, i got a salad and ate it. i hadnt even thought of a salad in a long time, and there it was a salad. you know what, it was good too. i really liked it and it got me to thinking better. <br /><br />maybe this is all a habit, i just need to get into a better habit of what i eat and do this everyday. i really need to be drinking my water, i think about it, but i dont do it, and that is not going to help me any. so yesterday was not good but today is another day and i am going to try to focus on it today and keep that up, maybe i can get into a habit of focusing on it and keep doing it, i would sure like to see myself thin one day. i dont even know what i would look like thin. well i better get to work ..you all have a great day!Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-17771472931018721452011-11-30T22:34:00.003-06:002011-11-30T23:19:30.374-06:00thinking is better than not thinking..i think..lol<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-mhfQ91Y1wCw/TtcOD6HliZI/AAAAAAAABvE/0AYkbicho9I/s1600/b24.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-mhfQ91Y1wCw/TtcOD6HliZI/AAAAAAAABvE/0AYkbicho9I/s320/b24.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5681024915254643090" /></a><br />my beautiful cousin bobbie joe who is now a model, posing for me at one of our many photoshoots this year..she is a beauty.i love to take her picture<br /><br />I have been better today at thinking about what i need to do..well actually remembering to concentrate on what i have to eat or not eat and drink. Although my drinking pop leaves something to be desired, my concentrating on food is getting somewhat better. I started my day not thinking about what i should be drinking, just grabbing the pepsi that i had in the fridge to take with me to work. See the way i was thinking was that i could drink just one bottle all morning and as opposed to 2 cans of pop that i normally drink by the end of my shift. i guess i was thinking 250 is better than 300 and it is but it is still not good to begin with. <br /><br />SO TOMORROW I SHALL TAKE A GLASS OF WATER..ITS WHAT I NEED ANYWAY!<br /><br />I ate my protein bar like i do every morning but i need to think of maybe fruit instead. There is really too much sugar in the protein bars to really help with weight loss, and really do these bars really curb our hunger, or DO WE JUST MAKE OURSELVES BELIEVE THEY DO..!<br /><br />When i came home i had already consumed ice cream and regular pop and that protein bar..toooo much chocolate way to much sugar..its really a good thing that i am not a diabetic because i would probably be very sick by now. i brought home jr, cheeseburgers from braums for all of us to have here at the house and so i had mine and ate it pretty fast.. i am going to have to start slowing down and realizing i have food in my mouth. <br /><br />I didnt eat anything but a bag of popcorn that of course had butter on it...ya know looking at everything i have been having today, i think i am a food addict as well or at least a sugar addict..i know that much..but the thing that i am looking at today is the fact that i have thought about it..even if i didnt do well with the food, i did look at it and say i need to do something now..<br /><br />I AM PUTTING MY FOOT DOWN NOW AND SAYING NO! NO ! NO!..I DONT WANT TO GO ON ANY FURTHER..!<br /><br />I didnt eat when we went to wendys and it really wasnt because i was making any kind of effort but because i am not feeling well and have been and still am sick. But by the time i got out of class tonight i was hungry..i guess i really hadnt had anything that was healthy just junk food, and of course i didnt get anything that was healthy either. i went right over and got a 20 piece mcnuget from mickeyDs..not the best kind of food to eat but i was hungry and craving it for some reason..<br /><br />I ate half which is 10 of them a whopping 450 calories..but i didnt get a pop this time..i have cut back on how much pop i am drinking, at least today i am cutting back..tomorrow i may just cut it out i dont know..<br /><br />But what i like the best is that i am trying to do something now..BEFORE IT WAS LIKE I HAD GIVEN UP AND DIDNT CARE..now i need to care even if this is all i have in life just to take care of my mom and myself and just be here on this earth..at least i will be here..and not 6 feet under..ITS TOO EARLY FOR ME TO DIE..I MAY BE READY TO SEE GOD AND HEAVEN BUT I AM NOT READY TO LEAVE THIS EARTH..<br /><br />tomorrow starts the day all over again and another day where i have to watch it..but there will never be a day where i dont have to watch my weight...its just in me,<br />BUT IT HASNT BEEN TOO BAD TODAY! MAYBE TOMORROW WILL BE A BRIGHTER DAY AND A BETTER DAY AND ONE DAY CLOSER TO BEING THE TRUE ME..THE ME THAT SO WANTS TO GET OUT OF THIS FAT BODY AND BE FREE FROM THE BAD HEALTH AND THE PAIN IN THE LEGS AND JUST BE A NORMAL PERSON SITTING IN A NORMAL SIZED CHAIR AND NOT BREAKING IT!<br /><br />SO THINKING IS BETTER THAN NOT THINKING ABOUT IT, AT LEAST I AM NOW TRYING..Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-51597425822441030032011-11-29T21:52:00.005-06:002011-11-29T22:28:56.746-06:00I feel like i have hit bottom<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-QWMpoZ9GGCw/TtWtseR7JUI/AAAAAAAABuU/4Sh4L447OfM/s1600/IMG_5459.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-QWMpoZ9GGCw/TtWtseR7JUI/AAAAAAAABuU/4Sh4L447OfM/s320/IMG_5459.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5680637484551841090" /></a><br />this is my nephew sean and his cover for his book that is coming out soon..go buy it this will help you so much..i hope it helps me..he lost 275 pounds in 26 months if you didnt already know that..the name of his book is Transformation Road the journey back from 505 pounds..<br />I know i havent been good about keeping up with this blog, in fact i really thought i was just going to let it go.i am so busy these days going to school and work and taking care of mom and trying to get my photography off the ground, that i have no time for myself. i know thats a really long sentence and probably not structured well but tonight i dont care, i am just writing.<br /><br />i just feel like i have hit the bottom and no where to go. my nephew sean is coming out with his book which is exciting and i am very happy that he was able to get his weight off and i know i can do this..but i just dont feel like i can..does that even make sense? <br /><br />i have gained back all the weight i had previously lost plus the weight i had already lost before that..so now i am actually close to the highest weight i have been..my weight is now 341..i lost a few pounds being really sick..i wouldnt advise it..lol<br /><br />i am just so tired of being tired and sick and not being able to fit into chairs because people at the schools and at jobs dont realize that maybe we have bigger people than just what fits those little chairs..i have had to deal with this for 8 years now and i am really tired of it..<br /><br />i just want to feel good again..i dont want to die early..i am only 43 and even though i dont have my own family i do still have my brother and sisters and my mom is still here..there should be so many reasons to want to live and get this weight off, why cant i feel like its the most important thing and just do it..<br /><br />i had a really bad day today, and even though it was really bad i do remember not thinking about the food..that wasnt on my mind, now pop is another story..i think i am more of a pop drinker than a food addict to be truthful i can drink pop like its water..i have been trying to drink my water more the last few days..maybe by doing this i will get myself back into control..i sure hope so..<span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">i have to do something..<br />cause as sean says choose change before change chooses you, and it will be choosing me and it wont be good unless i do something now..</span></span>Kelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-85573585341377907712011-05-23T20:29:00.002-05:002011-05-23T20:55:37.976-05:00its one day at a time<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-oOvL_pnB-2k/TdsP_IlUIII/AAAAAAAABm4/aOKxdGeR7n4/s1600/IMG_5342.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-oOvL_pnB-2k/TdsP_IlUIII/AAAAAAAABm4/aOKxdGeR7n4/s320/IMG_5342.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5610095338130251906" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-d0gsICXq3c4/TdsP-zWrccI/AAAAAAAABmw/tB1_AaSnSrc/s1600/IMG_5340.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-d0gsICXq3c4/TdsP-zWrccI/AAAAAAAABmw/tB1_AaSnSrc/s320/IMG_5340.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5610095332431720898" /></a><br />the pretty birds from early this morning..<br /><br />i have been doing good today..i have already got 60 ounces of water down me and i didnt even look at the pop..we have diet pop in the fridge but any pop is bad for me now..so i woke up drinking water..and i am going to bed drinking water..i went and weighed today..well it wasnt bad...at least not as bad as i thought it would be..<br /><br />i weighed 330 pounds..so thats my start again.330 i seem to like to start at that number ..i dont know why but i do..lol but at least its not 350 like i thought it would be..i really feel that big and i know i look that big..i hate the way i look these days..i was becoming smaller looking and even kinda pretty when i was down to 296..and then something happened and i lost it..now its hard to walk a mile and i was walking 3 miles..but i am doing it..i cant keep whining about what was and just do it..<br /><br />my journey seems to be taking longer than i wanted but i guess that is up to me..if i really wanted to get it off i would have kept going and not stopped..so now i am taking it one day at a time..thats all i can do..i am going to have weak days and i am going to have strong nothing will get in my way days...i only hope i have more strong ones than weak ones..<br /><br />today was a day where it could have gone bad, if i had let it..i went to the medical supply store to get something for my mom and there was a jar of candy bars sitting right on the couter ..only .25 cents for each one ..and i had a dollar right in my hand..oh my my favorite chocolate..but i decided it wasnt a smart choice..right now for me i dont need to be eating the candy bars even though i will not just quit all together..this is the beginning i dont need to be tempted..<br /><br />so i walked out without the chocolate..and i was proud of myself..i made it thru..i ate a salad and had a grilled chicken go wrap and had ice water..i love ice water..that is the best kind to have..i could have gotten coke but i said no i dont need the extra calories..i mean look at how many calories are in pop...150 to 8 ounces of pop..how awful and if we super size it or we make it a 32 ounce because its cheaper, were only hurting ourselves..getting that much pop is way too many calories for anyone too have..<br /><br />i know i will be losing weight just because i am not drinking pop anymore..sometimes i dont care for the water all the time, but it doesnt have any calorie intake and that is something i am watching..i also dont need the sugar whether its sugar or sweetners..i dont need it either..so my day wasnt bad..<br /><br />i then came home to a storm ..we keep having the storms aroud here now..its tornado season so now we have to stay aware..but the storm held back til i got in at least a half a mile..so i did walk some today..i feel good about this day..and i know that tomorrow is going to be another day and there will be challenges then too..but i feel like i can over come them now just by taking it one day at a time..<br /><br />have a great night<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-52874040437712264152011-05-22T23:14:00.002-05:002011-05-22T23:33:11.151-05:00its been too long<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-7fgUFpwQhdg/TdnjaXAyFYI/AAAAAAAABmo/OMer0Oe2GlI/s1600/IMG_5310.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-7fgUFpwQhdg/TdnjaXAyFYI/AAAAAAAABmo/OMer0Oe2GlI/s320/IMG_5310.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5609764852860065154" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-UMnEgts047A/TdnjaZmVB-I/AAAAAAAABmg/kczphkHopdo/s1600/IMG_5317.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-UMnEgts047A/TdnjaZmVB-I/AAAAAAAABmg/kczphkHopdo/s320/IMG_5317.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5609764853554415586" /></a><br />the clouds tonight..while i was walking<br />wow i have been away tooo long ..i havent exercised or even cared about drinking water or getting off pop or anything i am supposed to be caring about since december of last year..wow going on 6 months and i have put the weight back on too..well today i decided it isnt coming off by itself and it isnt going to help me any to just keep getting bigger and bigger..<br /><br />i cant do that to myself..the other day a little girl asked me when i was having the baby..awe the honesty of a little one..they dont know how to be tactful yet..they just know what they see..and yep in my clothes i do look pregnant..isnt that awful i know i have gained probably all of it back..i will see tomorrow..<br /><br />i decided i was going to drink water..i was going to walk too..and i did i even counted the calories today..i ate 1100 calories and i have drank 60 ounces so far of water and i walked almost a mile in 40 minutes ...well the time will get better soon...<br /><br />i have been sick all weekend too with migraines so walking for me was a big thing..but i did it..i was glad i did it too..i feel good now..i really do..i dont know how much i am going to lose each month but at least i will be losing..its a whole lot better than gaining like ive been doing..<br /><br />i dont know what happened, except i got to where i just wasnt caring ..it was like the pop was my comfort and if i felt the least bit depressed which i did alot of the time, i would end up with reg.pop a 32 ounce reg.pop and i got to where i was eating candy in my room too..i would watch tv at night and i would have twizzlers in my bedroom..sometimes chocolate..so thats a big no no..and i dont mean a bite..<br /><br />but i started thinking i really want to be thin when i graduate and i will feel so much better walking when i am a 100 pounds thinner and then 200 pounds thnner..cause yes i have 200 pounds to lose..it has too come off or i will be dead sooner than i want to be..<br /><br />well i will stop til tomorrow..i am going to do this everynight..i am going to be faithful to the blog..and to myself..thanks for the support..<br /><br />have a great night..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-88591203975255567842011-04-19T22:34:00.003-05:002011-04-19T23:08:09.529-05:00yea i know its been a long time.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-O1VW_Mh3WDo/Ta5ZabjsJHI/AAAAAAAABmE/t6pn2Yuw6yc/s1600/IMG_3291.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-O1VW_Mh3WDo/Ta5ZabjsJHI/AAAAAAAABmE/t6pn2Yuw6yc/s320/IMG_3291.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5597509697477026930" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-eAGrfMEISmk/Ta5ZaTP6pgI/AAAAAAAABl8/aTPS9j6Y5GM/s1600/IMG_3357.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-eAGrfMEISmk/Ta5ZaTP6pgI/AAAAAAAABl8/aTPS9j6Y5GM/s320/IMG_3357.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5597509695246607874" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-lwDnEVe9CD8/Ta5ZZ9gpV1I/AAAAAAAABl0/9kr2-uIHcNM/s1600/IMG_2030.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-lwDnEVe9CD8/Ta5ZZ9gpV1I/AAAAAAAABl0/9kr2-uIHcNM/s320/IMG_2030.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5597509689411196754" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-nFa2Tx8vExU/Ta5ZZrLVZcI/AAAAAAAABls/PHns-YnsCG4/s1600/IMG_2072.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-nFa2Tx8vExU/Ta5ZZrLVZcI/AAAAAAAABls/PHns-YnsCG4/s320/IMG_2072.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5597509684489971138" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-TidE8l6IkCE/Ta5ZZR6A11I/AAAAAAAABlk/GtxCCQ91Kqg/s1600/IMG_2035.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-TidE8l6IkCE/Ta5ZZR6A11I/AAAAAAAABlk/GtxCCQ91Kqg/s320/IMG_2035.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5597509677706434386" /></a><br />these are just some of the photos i have been taking..visit my website and you will see the rest..<br /><a href="http://kelli-anderson.artistwebsites.com"></a><br />dear friends,<br /><br />i know i have not even thought about blogging for a while, and i know that is so wrong..i havent watched myself and i even drink the pop..yes i do i drink the reg. pop..i have not tried and all i have to blame is myself..so many people have tried and tried to get me back on track..i know they are tired of telling me things that go in one ear and out the other..and honestly there is no but..i just havent done it..i want to ..no i dont want to or i would be doing it..<br /><br />i can tell myself all kinds of excuses but its not going to help..i gained back to 330.okay that is where i was when i started this..i lost all the weight for nothing, and now i have it to do all over again..a lot of fun..but i will have to do it..i do have a choice..i could die i guess..do i want to do that..NO! so watching the calories and no more pop and some sort of walking is something i have to do..my sister who has diabetes just got out of the hospital today..her blood sugar had gotten out of control..see she wasnt doing anything either..i dont know why we didnt..i suppose we just didnt care at the time..there are times i get to where i just dont care if i am heavy or slim..i get depressed and i just eat ice cream or i drink alot of pop..and i guess here for a while i have been doing just that..<br />i have never been told i was actually diabetic, i was borderline a few years ago which means i could possibly get it..but now we have to get busy and get her blood sugar down..now is the time for me to get busy and keep going..i have everyday to do this..as long as im here i may as well take control of what i eat..this blogging is something i need to be doing everyday..i guess i will have more time now..its almost summer..walking weather..i have started a website as well for my photos..im kellidee photography ..im actually at fine art america.com i will put my link on here..hope you stop by and look over my pictures..im selling them as well..and if your on facebook with me i have a fan page too..kellidee photography...<br />hope you all enjoy the night..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-91914176701070290362011-03-06T22:44:00.003-06:002011-03-06T23:00:34.879-06:00gotta make this fast..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-FIzBgQlDxQY/TXRmMpTkyPI/AAAAAAAABlc/FuyIMwO8_lo/s1600/IMG_1115.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-FIzBgQlDxQY/TXRmMpTkyPI/AAAAAAAABlc/FuyIMwO8_lo/s320/IMG_1115.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5581198205651306738" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-KI1Tv1rX1Xs/TXRmMeAFjfI/AAAAAAAABlU/U4o_726JMFM/s1600/IMG_1064.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-KI1Tv1rX1Xs/TXRmMeAFjfI/AAAAAAAABlU/U4o_726JMFM/s320/IMG_1064.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5581198202616778226" /></a><br />this is one of the pretty sunsets i have been taking lately, and me and sean last weekend when i had just started the weightloss..<br /><br />i should be studying right now. i have been putting all my efforts into my studying and not my blogging and i probably should make some time for it. i am doing so much better right now..i have gone to the doctor and got some tests done and hopefully soon will find out why i am in pain..supposed to go to the pain doctor..but i got a double dose strength of a water pill and now i am floating to the restroom..in one week i have lost 17 pounds using this water pill..<br /><br />of course i am watching what i eat and how much i eat and i am not drinking any pop..i have let go of the pop and am now drinking tea..i eat alot of salads..i know something sean never touched but i like salad..so i am eating alot of that and trying to walk as much as i can at school..i walk about 45 minutes all together to get to class and back to the car..so i walk enough..right now i am in so much pain that it hurts to move around..i am going to therapy again but cant get wrapped again until the 21st of this month..but so far i dont think i have gotten bigger..in fact with the 17 pounds gone it has helped me..<br /><br />well my days anymore consists of going to school and taking care of mom and taking pictures of anything and everything these days..<br />i wanted to let you all know i am doing well..im more focused than i have been in a long time..and i appreciate all of you for your concerns and your loyality to my page..<br /><br />i really better get to studying got to get up early tomorrow..<br />goodnight and god bless<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-8903965203028081342011-02-02T03:36:00.004-06:002011-02-02T04:05:55.794-06:00im still here..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TUkq8IU44pI/AAAAAAAABk8/8TJSCdr1crM/s1600/023.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TUkq8IU44pI/AAAAAAAABk8/8TJSCdr1crM/s320/023.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5569029626735944338" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TUkq79vbirI/AAAAAAAABk0/G7ow0B-ae8o/s1600/020.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TUkq79vbirI/AAAAAAAABk0/G7ow0B-ae8o/s320/020.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5569029623894477490" /></a><br /><br />our winter blizzard, and me outside ..you can tell i have gained the weight in the face..i feel awful..having all the problems like before..<br /><br />im sorry i havent kept in touch with everyone..im still here everyone..i havent done well though..i ended up gaining 30 pounds back..im back up to 326 now..its awful and i am just not sure anymore no i do know what to do..but for some reason i am just not caring enough to do it..its winter time here .we are in a blizzard right now..and i cant seem to walk but i do have to walk when i am going to class..so i am walking some..<br /><br />we got thru christmas and now were getting into february...hopefully soon i will be able to really walk outside..but it wont do any good if i keep eating like i have been doing..i didnt mean to worry anyone..i am thankful you all kept watching for me..its nice to know you all are there..i did get back in school this semester.so now i only have 3 semesters to go and i will graduate..my facebook friends know how iam right now.i do keep up with that everyday..i just havent felt like writing for a while..i got off of the whole thing and just didnt concentrate on anything..i am watching it some and i do stay conscious of it but not enough..i hate it too..i really hate it..cause now my legs are back to being bad and i am short of breath and walking hurts all over again..so i guess the only thing i can do is start again..i have to start all over and get back to feeling good again..i really hope i can get to feeling good..i guess walking at school will help.. and when it gets warmer i will go outside..but i am still here and i will try and do this blog everyday..it seemed to help before..<br /><br />enjoy your journey and stay warm<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-32071721673619498452010-12-22T02:03:00.002-06:002010-12-22T02:14:05.215-06:00merry christmas!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TRGzMzWk20I/AAAAAAAABko/5zMgqX4RH5A/s1600/100_6503.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 181px; height: 320px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TRGzMzWk20I/AAAAAAAABko/5zMgqX4RH5A/s320/100_6503.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5553416848049232706" /></a><br />our tree tonight..<br /><br />hi everyone..i have been so busy lately with christmas that i havent found time to do the blog..but i have been doing pretty good..i was doing really well til the weekend came along..i dont know why but i seem to have problems around the weekend ..<br /><br />i got to where i was walking twice a day though..i am going to stick with that too because i feel so good when i walk..my legs really feel good..i havent walked today and very little yesterday but tomorrow i will be right back to walking...<br /><br />i decorated the tree tonight..i know its late but my uncle has been selling real michigan trees and so he brought us one last night..it was a big tree..bigger than i have decorated before...but it was sure pretty..<br /><br />i have been doing pretty good about the calories too..the last couple of days i didnt too well but i will tomorrow..no more going off..<br /><br />well i am headed to bed..its late..enjoy this week..its almost christmas..<br />enjoy the journey<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-81822080555575107132010-12-15T22:20:00.003-06:002010-12-15T22:49:59.716-06:00walking is a big key to success..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQmaSA0B9pI/AAAAAAAABkg/9UfcT7G05Uc/s1600/scan0043.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQmaSA0B9pI/AAAAAAAABkg/9UfcT7G05Uc/s320/scan0043.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5551137649957402258" /></a><br />me and my brother keith at christmas time when i was a little girl..<br /><br />well today is another good day..its been nice outside and i decided i cant let go of the walking.i dont want to stop it and then go back to the way i was ..where i just didnt care..i cant do that again...so i went outside with my coat on and put my hat on and walked til i got too tired to do anything else..i ended up walking 2.25 miles before i had gotten too tired..then i decided i needed to rest and go again a little later..so we went and did our errands and then came home a little later for my second go around..<br /><br />i wanted to match what i had done this afternoon but i ended up doing a mile and a half ..it was just so cold when i got out there the second time, that i couldnt do a whole 2.25..that will just have to wait ..i feel pretty good going out everyday and walking..its when i get done that i feel so pooped i cant stand it..lol but it will get me going..i really believe walking is the main key to this success..<br /><br />i did well on my food too..i had 1300 calories today and actually thought i wasnt going to be doing well..well we had gone to taco bueno and i got 3 tacos but i love refried beans..i really should have looked at the calories before i ordered but i didnt and so i ate it anyway...well after i looked at it i then counted it up and i had 900 calories in this meal..i couldnt believe it..200 for each of the tacos and 300 for the refried beans..my oh my so i had eaten 1200 by that time..and was now at the amount i needed..so i did well tonight..nothing but a banana and some green pepper..im feeling good now..i feel alive and i feel like i will do this..this is going to happen and i am going to do it now..<br /><br />enjoy the journey along the way..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-30014708628191323532010-12-15T00:10:00.002-06:002010-12-15T00:23:44.375-06:00i made 3 and a half miles today..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQhe5voHZhI/AAAAAAAABkY/SB76Npkh_tw/s1600/10956.gif"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQhe5voHZhI/AAAAAAAABkY/SB76Npkh_tw/s320/10956.gif" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5550790886864414226" /></a><br />well i am focused now..this is going to happen and i am going to make it happen..i went out and walked today and it was so nice ..45 degrees and i felt good outside..i decided i wanted to get my 3 miles in but i didnt have enough time to actually do it all at once..so i walked 2 miles in 38 minutes and it felt good..i then went out again about 3 hours later and walked another mile and a half in 25 minutes..i couldnt believe it i had done 3 and a half miles today..i would like to get 3 miles all at one time and may do that by the end of the week..<br /><br />i am feeling good about this and it seems pretty simple as long as i keep my mind on it..thats what i have to do..i have to have this time to do this for me...this is my health and what i have to do to get it better..its going to take some time but it will happen..<br /><br />i did well on the calories and it just seems to be easy to do..i dont eat a whole lot but what i am eating now is apples and bananas..focus is the key ..consistency is the key and i am really trying to keep that in my head and i know exercise is the key as well..i have to be able to keep after it and i think i can..im like that little engine that could ..remember that story..i think i can i think i can..lol <br /><br />well i am going to get to sleep its late..<br />enjoy the journey<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-42029882910211271582010-12-13T22:24:00.002-06:002010-12-13T22:49:45.623-06:00i just did not believe it..!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQb3RGqi0PI/AAAAAAAABkQ/sh9xhp1OpEI/s1600/100_6325.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 181px; height: 320px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQb3RGqi0PI/AAAAAAAABkQ/sh9xhp1OpEI/s320/100_6325.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5550395463999607026" /></a><br />me walking out in the cold..<br /><br />wow..well you all knew i was going to weigh today..and i decided i needed too ..i wanted to see if i had lost anything and wow i was so shocked..wow i stepped on the scales thinking i would see a 4 pound loss if i was lucky..i never dreamed i would see an 8 pound loss in 6 days..can you believe it..8 pounds..wow!<br /><br />i was so excited all day..i just couldnt believe it..i now weigh 311 and it was so close to 310 that it kept going over there but it stayed on 311..so i said okay i can take that..lol <br /><br />this has been a great day..we even went to the stockade you know the buffet line..well this is the day that seniors get in for 6.00 drink and all..and they have alot of soft food that my mom can eat..and she did..she had two plates of good food..i am really glad she could eat it..well i didnt eat nearly as much as my mom..lol that is a first..<br /><br />i got a plate of roasted chicken and carrots and had a bite of sweet potatoes and a roll..i am getting so good now at conqouring the buffet tables..i felt good about this.i even had some sugar free chocolate mousse..it was good..i ate some fruit and didnt go away hungry or full..i wasnt sick and i didnt leave there feeling bad..i had a nice plate of food and left feeling good..i had won the battle..<br /><br />i feel like i have so much more focus now than i did before..i really dont know what happened but i am sure glad it did..i came home and i hadnt walked yet and was wondering but didnt wonder long..i have to keep up with the walking ..i dont care how cold it is..i have to do it..so i went out and walked in 29 degrees and did almost a mile..i am wanting to get to my 3 miles this week but tonight it was too cold to do more than a mile..so i did it and i feel good about it all..i am now going to do my 6 minutes with my shakeweight..i have been doing that this week too and it does burn..my oh my it burns..<br /><br />i really want to get this off ..i am living everyday i might as well keep living healthy..the walking helps so much more than just burning the calories..i have noticed my legs going down in swelling now and now i will be able to get my legs to a normal look again..and i know i will feel so much better..i already am..one week and i am feeling it..i am so ready to be healthy and thin..i so want to see myself thin..i dont remember myself thin..i know i weighed 150 in high school but even that is not the thinnest..but i plan on walking everyday and i will drink the water soon..i am going to do my walking during the day since it does get so cold at night now..but i enjoyed the air..it felt good..<br /><br />but i was and still am so excited..i hope you all are doing well with your journey..<br />enjoy the night..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-54953696073104880962010-12-12T22:13:00.002-06:002010-12-12T22:34:14.023-06:00well my focus is back for now..lol<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQWiPgPB20I/AAAAAAAABkI/u-qHE9Wfizc/s1600/100_6430.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TQWiPgPB20I/AAAAAAAABkI/u-qHE9Wfizc/s320/100_6430.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5550020503038712642" /></a><br /><br />me and my cat sofie tonight..she was sleeping on me..<br /><br />hi ya all..i know i have been away way tooo long..3 weeks is too long to not put down what i am thinking and feeling and eating day to day..well you know i was starting to do well when i last wrote ..but then i fell off again and stayed off til last week..<br /><br />i dont know what happened last week but something did..i have finally gotten my focus back on straight like i had before and now i am just taking it one day at a time..but i have to do it everyday..and thats the key..everyday..i am walking and keeping my calories at 1200 and sometime soon i will drink some water..but last tuesday i decided that i cant keep not caring ..because if i keep that up i wont be around to not care sooner than i thought..it is a process that takes everyday to get through..<br /><br />we have problems that arise and events that happen everyday that is going to put us in situations where we are going to be near sweets or pop or tons of food that is not good for us..the key to it is moderation..if you know you are going to be in that kind of situation eat very little and look over the food at the party..if you know you are going to be eating at the party then make sure you get some exercise before you go and just know that you can only allow yourself so many calories.its not the food that is important..its the friends and family that are there to enjoy..if you are like me ..you are the one who is the picture taker at every event..<br />i take pictures every where i go and so i usually dont eat very much when i am there..<br /><br />i have been doing well this week..i have walked all week and actually got to 2.25 miles by friday and now i am going to work towards 3 miles starting tomorrow..i feel good about it this time..i really think i am going to get it all off now..<br />its something i have never done yet and i believe i will make it this time..<br /><br />i am doing the 1200 calories and walking everyday..i ended up gaining back up to 322 and now i am going down again..the last i weighed i was 319 last week..so we will see how this last week went..i am back to school now in january..i finally was able to get back to school..so i am excited..3 more semesters and i graduate with my bachelors degree..well i will be back on more often than i have been now..<br /><br />i hope you all have a wonderful moday..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-8222404661502534162010-11-17T23:12:00.002-06:002010-11-17T23:31:35.146-06:00water..me drink water..!lol<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOS6AP-1lhI/AAAAAAAABjw/7NxeFpzAaAc/s1600/100_5713.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 181px; height: 320px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOS6AP-1lhI/AAAAAAAABjw/7NxeFpzAaAc/s320/100_5713.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5540757955025409554" /></a><br />i was playing around after i colored my hair..i like it..not too different ..<br /><br />i think this is the way i feel right now..i cant seem to get going on the water..i am doing good about keeping on track with the calories..i just dont eat anymore after i have reached my limit..im doing okay there..its been so cold here this week that i cant seem to get out and walk..i need to exercise and quit talking about it and just do it..so before i go to sleep toight i am going to do my shake weight..6 minutes shouldnt hurt me in any way..so i will do it for tonight..<br /><br />today we ended up at the stockade ..my sisters favorite place..i like it but i cant afford it right now so i wsnt too happy about going..but we went and i ate salad first and then i had brocali and the pot roast ..just the meat and then i had a roll..i did have a brownie and a piece of angel food cake and so i wasnt too bad..cause when i came home i didnt eat anything after that..so this was my meal of the day..i had eaten a cup of cereal and that was it..no reg.pop but no water either..i really need to get some water down me ..i came home and colored my hair tonight..my roots were starting to really become black and grey..so i had to do something..<br /><br />i kinda feel better than i have been which is good..i need to get with it and stay with it..i was doing so well and then poof something stopped and i ballooned out again..it wasnt fun..believe me my self esteem went with it..but i feel better knowing i can control what i eat and how much i eat..that this is one thing i can do for myself..to feel better and once i look better i will feel better..so it just goes hand in hand..hope you all are having a good journey as well..i know there are alot of people who are out there doing the same thing i am right now and feeling just like me..like they will never get it off..believe me it can be done..we can do this..we just have to believe in ourselves enough and want it enough to do it..we have to if we want to live for as long as we are allowed to live..<br /><br />so please dont think you are alone in this..we are all doing this together and it is a rough road ..but we will make it with Gods help and the help of our friends everywhere we will do this..<br />until tomorrow..make good choices im going tooo<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-44297421781278150752010-11-17T01:14:00.000-06:002010-11-17T01:46:31.078-06:00i stayed on track today..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOOIATo7jaI/AAAAAAAABjo/D0RxWYuJ9MA/s1600/scan0062.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOOIATo7jaI/AAAAAAAABjo/D0RxWYuJ9MA/s320/scan0062.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5540421505449168290" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOOH-uwAOoI/AAAAAAAABjg/OS5Fu5XllE8/s1600/100_5690.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOOH-uwAOoI/AAAAAAAABjg/OS5Fu5XllE8/s320/100_5690.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5540421478366853762" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOOH-drkrAI/AAAAAAAABjY/p19DWsGk4jY/s1600/100_5681.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 181px; height: 320px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOOH-drkrAI/AAAAAAAABjY/p19DWsGk4jY/s320/100_5681.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5540421473784867842" /></a><br />this is sean today at 230 pounds and sean when he was about 12..he started earlyin life being heavy..go to www.losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com<br /><br />well today was a good day..i stayed on track and still had calories to go even when i was getting ready to be in bed..i got to 1300 calories and did good there..i havent started the water today nor have i started the exercise..i said i was going to last night but i didnt..i always find something else to do and i cant do that anymore...even if i am just doing something in my room ..i need to be doing it..i could be doing the shake weight..after all i bought it to work on my arms ..i might as well use it..<br /><br />i will do something tomorrow and i will drink water too..these are important things to do and i need to put them into my daily schedule of things that are important to do..i didnt drink any reg. pop today but i did drink diet pop and i am really wanting to get off the pop altogether..i dont need the sweeteners and i dont need the sugar..so i dont need the pop..its something that i should look at as evil instead of something i cherish..because it doesnt do any good for me ..it only hurts..<br /><br />well sean came back here today to weigh on the scales he started out on..for those of you who do not know sean ..he is my nephew/brother..my sisters child but we were raised together only 3 years apart..so we really are like brother and sister..but sean is the one who started this blogging and lost his weight doing it..he had a goal of 230 sept. 15,2008 ..he was 505 pounds when he started and today he weighed 230 pounds ..2 years and 2 months later..he is truly awesome and now he helps people along their journey..he is an inspiration to so many people..<br /><br />sometimes when i think of him i end up thinking of the little boy that always wanted the same thing i had and always wanted to stay at home with me when i didnt want any one too..he was always an onery kid but when he ad i became 12 and 15 we decided to become friends and go against our parents..lol so we never told on each other after that..we were best buddies to each other then..<br /><br />now as he is an older man ..i see his kids act like he did and they were just like he and i were..and then one day they became friends..that was cool..i am very proud of my little brother and i hope he knows that..i know our family ..well we have always been close at least the last 20 years and i know we all are very proud of sean and we love him very much..he is a smart and funny man with a big heart and compassion for everyone he sees..he truly wants to help people and i can see that in him..his girls are the same way..they truly care and i am so glad they do..i think it is so great the kind of example he is setting in front of his children..you doing great sean..and i am very proud to be your big sister....i love you brother and i hope i can do what you have just done..see were still kids..now i want what you have..lol funny isnt it.. lol <br /><br />you all take care<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-69645527593915102402010-11-15T17:42:00.002-06:002010-11-15T18:13:38.677-06:00i gained the weight back , but i have to get if off..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOHMkRK1HWI/AAAAAAAABjQ/NhAowUR5_1E/s1600/100_5674.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TOHMkRK1HWI/AAAAAAAABjQ/NhAowUR5_1E/s320/100_5674.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539933940098604386" /></a><br />our fall weather is now turning into winter..<br /><br />i know i keep going back and forth and i say one thing and end up doing another..its like i dont know what i am talking about or even care..like i am just talking and not meaning anything by it..well i do mean it..i just dont seem to know how to do it..or i am making it hard for me to do..i think that it is it..i am just making it hard..i mean sean did it and he made it the easiest thing in the world ..even though we know its not..but he lost it all in 2 years..i can do the same..i know i can i just have to be consistent thats the key..<br /><br />i weighed today..oh my i weighed and wasnt too shocked just disappointed i guess..i weighed 322..i have gained back 26 pounds from when i had lost down to 296..i dont know what stopped me but something did..something stopped me bad ..cause i started to drink pop and didnt care about my calories anymore..and walking what was that..now when i go walk i will probably have to go back to a block the first time..i am just so disappointed in me..i could be closer to my goal by now and now i am starting over again..<br /><br />well i have such great support on facebook and here..i know writing my blog everyday is something i need to do consistently as well..i need to be accountable for myself and for what i eat and drink..because drinking pop is the biggest addiction for me..i can leave some food alone but pop..let me at it...lol<br /><br />today so far i have had 1130 calories ..i am at the calorie counting stage..i know i need to count carbs as well but i am going to make it as simple as possible and count my calories..i have had diet pop some not alot..and i will have water before the night is up..i ate roasted chicken ..what i ate with it is not the best in diet food but i am just counting calories so its how many calories i eat not what i eat that i am looking at today..<br /><br />gaining this weight back just makes me feel like i am never going to get it off ..no matter how hard i try..but i cant feel like that..i cant give up on it..i know God is with me thru everything i do and everything that happens to me..and i know i have control over what i put into my mouth and how much i put into my mouth..so what i need to do is use the control i have and eat the right portions..its all portion control..its all mental how you think about it..if you can see yourself doing this then it will happen..but if you are around too much negative vibes you wont do this because you wont believe you can..<br /><br />i believe i can now..i know i have too..i want too because i want to live..i want to see myself thin for once..i want my mamma to see me thin..my dad didnt get too but now i have a chance to show my momma what i would look like thin..i want to because i know i can do this and i want to do it..<br /><br />i dont want to be full of talk..i dont want to be just a dreamer..i want this to be a realistic dream..my goal for right now is 2 pounds a week..i really think i can manage that goal ..and if i lose more then great but 2 pounds is what i am shooting for..i am going to walk or do some sort of exercise ..right now its so cold i cant seem to get out and walk..plus its raining..i want my legs to get better and stop swelling up everyday..since i gained the weight my legs have really swollen up and somedays i cant even put my shoes on..so i want that to go away..i want to be healthy..im too young to not be healthy..<br /><br />im going to do this and do it for me..thats why i want to do it..for me!<br />thank you all for supporting me thru this..<br />think good thoughts..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-24271370348985027642010-11-07T15:36:00.002-06:002010-11-07T15:58:39.189-06:00i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TNcg2OK8I6I/AAAAAAAABjI/9JSchtMX2Sg/s1600/274.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TNcg2OK8I6I/AAAAAAAABjI/9JSchtMX2Sg/s320/274.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5536930382764319650" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TNcg1rrVahI/AAAAAAAABjA/Xlo9fgoU1XA/s1600/Psalm46_1.jpeg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 274px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TNcg1rrVahI/AAAAAAAABjA/Xlo9fgoU1XA/s320/Psalm46_1.jpeg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5536930373504952850" /></a><br />oreo in one of his many poses..he was quite a character..<br /><br />i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..i can i know i can..this is something i have been hearing in my head all day..i know i can..i have faith that God is going to be with me all the way through this..i know He will..<br /><br />i have had a bad couple of weeks..i got through it..but it wasnt fun..we had two family deaths within a couple of days and then two days ago..my cat oreo died actually was killed..we think he got hit by a car..he was bleeding on the side of his head..i have went through sort of an intervention with my friend..who has been so trying to get me to start again or just do something..i havent found a job and have student loans driving me crazy..but i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..<br /><br />i have to believe this and keep saying it in my heart..i am so afraid i have gained my weight back that i lost before..my chin has come back and now i know if i go out and walk..i wont be able to walk more than a block..but i need to do that..i need to start..i wont get to the end until i start at the beginning..im gonna miss oreo when i walk..he was the one who always liked to walk with me..and he would ride with my sister..she was always walking with the walker so he would ride..he had some kittens before he died..but now the mother cat has taken them away and we dont know where they are..but we have sofie and tux..they are loyal..they have been here since we moved here 11 years ago..<br /><br />I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME..wow what a verse..something that means so much..i know God is with me through it all..and i am going to do this..i am going to be healthy and fit..it may not be right at the moment i want it to be ..but i will get there...it will happen..i dont want to let my friends and family down..but most of all i dont want to let myself down..and i will if i dont do something now..it wont come off by it self..we have to do this for ourselves ..so i am going to do this now..and keep going until its done..this is life not a diet..life..<br /><br />have a wonderful sunday..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-876569351370495312010-10-25T21:20:00.002-05:002010-10-25T21:52:08.066-05:00well i think i better try water...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMZCFa6R9VI/AAAAAAAABi4/is68C-D7pH0/s1600/100_5255.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMZCFa6R9VI/AAAAAAAABi4/is68C-D7pH0/s320/100_5255.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5532181853161780562" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMZCFI4ksfI/AAAAAAAABiw/ZH_Ny0RjcQ0/s1600/100_5251.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMZCFI4ksfI/AAAAAAAABiw/ZH_Ny0RjcQ0/s320/100_5251.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5532181848322781682" /></a><br /><br />this is some of the nature i have been looking at lately...pretty fall colors..<br /><br />i have had a day of being so swollen i could barely get my feet into my shoes..i dont know what happened..but the shoes wouldnt go on my feet today..i have had a really bad day with the legs being as swollen as they are...if i had known that my life would be like this...i just dont think i would have gained all that weight...i gained back some weight lately and now i cant get through areas i could before..this is something i have got to get off..i am feeling so bad again and my legs are becoming swollen like before..what has happened to me that i just lost it...i just fell apart like i didnt care anymore...<br /><br />i have been getting so many people telling me that water really works for the legs..and i know it would..i just have this slight fear about water...i almost drowned as a kid and i just cant stand water anymore...i was even terrified when i got baptized..lol but i have decided i need to do the water..i need to jump in head first and do it..i need to for my poor legs..i know my legs would be so much better if i would be in water part of the time..i know it would help me lose the weight too..i just have to do it and not think about it..<br /><br />if i hadnt had reg..pop i would have done okay with the watching..we went to cicis today but i had salad ..the only thing is i had a brownie and a cinnimon roll too plus pop...but i have made up my mind that if i go there again..i will only have salad..you can just buy the salad bar..and that is what i will do.. i came home and layed down and put my legs up but they are still swollen up..so now i have switched rooms with my brother to lay down on a bed..and put them up all night..maybe that will help...i hope so..<br /><br />i have to get back to the way i was going before..i was losing and doing so well and then all of a sudden it just stopped and i found myself gaining it back..i cant do this anymore..but i have not had anymore hate email ..and i really dont think this person is going to send me anymore..i think this person just snapped all of a sudden and then realized what she did...but i will always forgive ..its just my nature..<br /><br />i will not have anyone tell me how to go about my life and if i am bothering this person with the way i look or the pictures i take then this person can look the other way..they dont have to see me or my pictures...but i do think i will check this water aerobics out...that would be good for me and my legs...lol <br /><br />well tomorrow is going to be a better day because i am gong to make it that way..<br />i am going to watch it better and try and walk outside..i have to do this again..<br />have a good night..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-10302604440969109842010-10-25T00:17:00.005-05:002010-10-25T02:08:33.631-05:00well this has been a weekend..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqXJq19aI/AAAAAAAABiY/Z6N4AYLMJ8M/s1600/100_5310.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqXJq19aI/AAAAAAAABiY/Z6N4AYLMJ8M/s320/100_5310.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531874294515496354" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqW7uxbhI/AAAAAAAABiQ/iUtIZ1N_4T8/s1600/100_5311.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqW7uxbhI/AAAAAAAABiQ/iUtIZ1N_4T8/s320/100_5311.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531874290773880338" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqWmv_LOI/AAAAAAAABiI/k9zDnoEVqXc/s1600/100_5303.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqWmv_LOI/AAAAAAAABiI/k9zDnoEVqXc/s320/100_5303.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531874285141830882" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqWVpCM1I/AAAAAAAABiA/7EO_3ERAQuc/s1600/100_5321.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqWVpCM1I/AAAAAAAABiA/7EO_3ERAQuc/s320/100_5321.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531874280549266258" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqWQgFeWI/AAAAAAAABh4/UXk1gwLudzM/s1600/100_5249.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUqWQgFeWI/AAAAAAAABh4/UXk1gwLudzM/s320/100_5249.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531874279169554786" /></a><br /><br />this was our homecoming parade this weekend..and getting my mom and brother to go with me and my sister was quite the miracle in itself..so here are pictures of that day..it was fun..oh there is one picture here that is me and my cousins..and our mothers...we are first cousins..just a few of us here..i have alot of cousins..<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUro-QFSsI/AAAAAAAABio/JSVjHMiMKVs/s1600/100_5391.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUro-QFSsI/AAAAAAAABio/JSVjHMiMKVs/s320/100_5391.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531875700199738050" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUropFAPXI/AAAAAAAABig/bdlWRgDk71Q/s1600/100_5363.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TMUropFAPXI/AAAAAAAABig/bdlWRgDk71Q/s320/100_5363.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531875694516125042" /></a><br /><br />here is the birthday boy..he turned a big 39 on saturday and we celebrated on sunday because he went to the homecoming game...without us...lol but it was fun..<br /><br />well i know i havent been on here for a while..i have been having a bad weekend besides having 2 people in my family die within 3 days apart..we now have 2 funerals to attend..one is over with and the other one is this coming week..so watching my weight is something i havent been able to do very well lately...but then i have had some hate email the last couple of days that has really bothered me..i honestly do not know who this person is ...but it has bothered me that someone dislikes me so much that they would be as hurtful as this person was...<br /><br />we all want to be liked and being liked is something i guess i was always insecure about..i couldnt see someone not liking me ..i try and be the nicest person i can and this person could not see how nice i really am and the kind of heart i have..<br /><br />i need to stop thinking about this because it just makes it hurt more...i am trying to get back to watching the weight because i know i need too...i know if i dont i will be just the same as killing myself and for me i really dont need that...i havent felt like doing much of anything since this email and i need to stop letting this person have control like this..i need to let God take care of it and leave it alone....<br /><br />i have been trying to eat alot of salads and trying to stay away from food i dont need..lately i just havent had a lot of luck with any of it ..frankly i just havent tried that hard..i dont know how to do this blogging anymore.i dot even feel like it..i know that this is my personal story of my ups and downs and its not supposed to be anything but my accountability to weight loss..but i am a very personable person..i get things out in the open..there isnt anything i dont mind talking about..thats just me, and if it helps someone else then i have done good by it..i like helping others, i always have..if i can i will..the first thing for me right now is to help myself..i need to help me by concentrating on getting back to walking and getting my self power back...i lost it the other night when i let this other person take it...<br /><br />this person talked about how bad my teeth were and how sick they were of me taking pictures all the time and being pictures of me..and talked about my geriatric family and how this world doesnt revolve around me and my family...then they talked about how i cant get a man or even keep a man...how i put too much out there for people to see ...well i am putting it out there for you all to see..i am telling you all this so you will understand how awful i have felt this weekend..this is just a portion of the email..they also talked about how disrespectful i was by taking pictures at my cousins before service..at the park..it wasnt during the funeral it was at the park..<br />ther eis so much more in this email and i know i need to leave it behind me..i told the person i would accept the appology and i am going to have to and leave it alone..this person sounds like a lady and so i will say she said she was having problems with her parents and took it out on me...well whoopi do..we all have problems with people and we dont go crazy on someone else over it..<br /><br />anyway i guess i will leave it here..i know she reads this blog because this was another problem she had with me..so if you dont like me then go away..you dont have to read about my life or look at my pictures..all of this is my business..not anyone elses...<br /><br />i hope you all have a good week..i dont know when i will be on here again..maybe tomorrow maybe not..i dont know..<br />goodnight all<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-83023353573962935572010-10-18T01:59:00.002-05:002010-10-18T02:13:59.934-05:00hi i am feeling better<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLvzrX24ZWI/AAAAAAAABhc/6C-H23h8x2A/s1600/scan0007.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLvzrX24ZWI/AAAAAAAABhc/6C-H23h8x2A/s320/scan0007.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529280893991544162" /></a><br /><br />my cousin ronnie when he was a boy..he was 51 ..<br /><br />i know i was just getting started again and then poof..i got sick..i have been down for 4 days with a migraine headache..oh my its been bad..the light the noise..the people walking around..oh the swirling ..now i am making myself sick again..lol <br /><br />this has been a really bad weekend...i got to where i was about to throw up and ate hardly anything..i think i did get some calories in but not all the calories i needed...but i am trying to get better now..i am still on the verge but it hopefully it wont happen..<br /><br />tonight as i was trying to feel better we got news that my cousin had died this evening..we didnt even know he was this sick...he had moved to another city and didtnt tell anyone where he was..i guess one of our cousins found out and kept in touch the last few months..but he was only 51 and was a close cousin with my brother being the same age range..<br /><br />but i am trying to get my focus back to feeling good and then onto losing this weight..it has to come off..i am just glad i am not around the candy bars anymore..man they were such a tempting thing to have around..and we never sold them so they were just there day after day...<br /><br />now i have just got to get to a job that doesnt have food around all the time..i hope i can find one like that..looking for work is not fun..very stressful..<br />well i think i will go back to bed..i am floating today from all the meds i am taking for the migrine..i even got a shot and took 3 pills..i sure hope it goes completely away...<br /><br />talk to you tomorrow<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-37846553539925055532010-10-13T21:30:00.004-05:002010-10-13T22:07:05.294-05:00its getting easier again..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLZzydyI5MI/AAAAAAAABhM/VPNJYJ9SZVc/s1600/100_4952.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 181px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLZzydyI5MI/AAAAAAAABhM/VPNJYJ9SZVc/s320/100_4952.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5527732903469442242" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLZy_TSWmFI/AAAAAAAABg0/YOb5MP6c5lQ/s1600/IM_A0029+(3).JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLZy_TSWmFI/AAAAAAAABg0/YOb5MP6c5lQ/s320/IM_A0029+(3).JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5527732024478439506" /></a><br /><br />i dont want to look this way again..my picture now is the purple but i will not look like i did before ever again..<br /><br /><br />today has been a good day despite the fact that we had a earthquake with a magnitude of 5.1 ..it was actually felt around here and that is something that never happens..but its beginning to be different weather for the whole world so who knows what tomorrow is going to bring...<br /><br />anyway we are okay and everyone is doing good..this was a good day mentally too..i knew i just cant say i am going to do something and do it for 1 day and get off of it..i knew i couldnt do that..if i am going to get healthy and lose this weight ..then i am going to keep doing this til it all comes off..one night isnt going to do it..i got up today and ate the plain yogurt with cinnimon and a banana and it kinda made me sick but it was good anyway...then we went for our ride..for some reason i dont want my mom to get so confused about things that she gets scared..she knows we go everyday and for her she thinks we are supposed to go everyday..now for me i dont have to leave this house everyday..but we do even if its just to ride around..but today my sister wanted to go to ci ci 's and they have a buffet there that is really cheap right now and actually next week is going to be even cheaper..<br /><br />BUT its the buffet that has the brownies and the cinnimon rolls and the pizza..and i normally cant control myself when i am there..i always end up getting at least 3 brownies and cinnimon rolls and i always get the dr.pepper in the big cups..32 ounces. this is not a good place for me..<br /><br />but i decided that if i was going in there i wasnt getting the buffet..only the salad bar..this way i couldnt get the brownie or the pizza ..and i only got a small drink and ended up drinking tea without sweetners..so i had 2 plates of salad and tea...that was it ..didnt get one brownie or roll..no sweets at all..i did good..i watched the other people around me stuffing themselves and not realizing it..lol<br /><br />i like this pizza place because of the nice manager and the salad bar is really good ..and cheap..but the strength of passing up the brownies and the cinni rolls when i could easily have gotten some was the greatest part of that visit..to know i can go in there and be okay with just getting salad and having tea is quite the miracle in itself..i know for a fact that God is giving me strength to keep going on this journey...He has to be..because i just havent had it for myself lately..<br /><br />when we came home and i ate some mixed veggies and some green pepper ..i then made a bowl of sugar free chocolate pudding..my mom can eat that and that seemed to be something we all liked..i had never actually made it so i learned something new tonight too..that was good stuff..<br />after that i went out and walked ..i did as much as i could do..i walked almost a mile around the park and then my legs were really giving out on me..so i did about 25 minutes tonight..a little more everyday..so today has been good and my mentality about the food is really starting to work just like sean says..i am watching my carbs and my calories and iam walking..now onto the water ..maybe that will be tomorrow..whoohoo what a difference a few days make in a persons mind...<br /><br />have a wonderful thursday..<br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4845874647844911762.post-38479257202454614612010-10-12T21:25:00.003-05:002010-10-12T21:43:28.756-05:00well today is a more focused day than before..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLUZjdZ3IKI/AAAAAAAABgs/bXUienq5urw/s1600/2010-10-12+18.56.21.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLUZjdZ3IKI/AAAAAAAABgs/bXUienq5urw/s320/2010-10-12+18.56.21.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5527352214646366370" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLUZjIJYPyI/AAAAAAAABgk/ZHFUcDyu3z8/s1600/2010-10-12+18.45.23.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_Dx0lSNoVBLo/TLUZjIJYPyI/AAAAAAAABgk/ZHFUcDyu3z8/s320/2010-10-12+18.45.23.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5527352208940089122" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />okay this is the food my sister and i fixed today..it is a start for us..were both so used to going to wendys or charlies chicken and getting our meal there that it is a change for us all to fix anything at home..but we did today and it was good..<br /><br />we are going to start fixing our meals here..if we go out to sit down ..at least i am not eating there..my sister ate a side salad which looked good..and my mom ate her mashed potatoes like she always does..but i just sat there with them..i had a drink and i am going to have to figure out what kind of drink from now on..because having a diet coke is just as bad as having a regular coke except for the calories..but all the sweetners in it is so bad for us..<br /><br />well i got up to yogurt and a banana today and had tomatoes at wendys then when we got home we fixed the meal which just doesnt take long to fix ..we had grilled chicken and mixed veggies and cranberry sauce and then had some salad food for us..i am pretty sure i have gotten close to 1200 calories ..i know i havent gone over which is what i like ..then this evening i went out and walked for 20 minutes ..my legs are so swollen right now that its hard for me to walk very long at a time..my right leg is twice as big as my left leg again..its really worrying me but if i just get out there and walk every night..my legs will go down..i know they will..they did before..<br /><br />so today has been a lot better day than before ...i am so glad ..for some reason i dont feel so good mentally right now but i know i will be fine..i have God on my side and that is all i need..<br /><br />i sure hope you all are having a great day today..thank you all for being on my side with me to support me through this tough time with the weight loss..i appreciate you all..<br /><br />kelliKelli Campbell http://www.blogger.com/profile/04397457628786303083noreply@blogger.com4