its been too long

the clouds tonight..while i was walking
wow i have been away tooo long ..i havent exercised or even cared about drinking water or getting off pop or anything i am supposed to be caring about since december of last year..wow going on 6 months and i have put the weight back on too..well today i decided it isnt coming off by itself and it isnt going to help me any to just keep getting bigger and bigger..

i cant do that to myself..the other day a little girl asked me when i was having the baby..awe the honesty of a little one..they dont know how to be tactful yet..they just know what they see..and yep in my clothes i do look pregnant..isnt that awful i know i have gained probably all of it back..i will see tomorrow..

i decided i was going to drink water..i was going to walk too..and i did i even counted the calories today..i ate 1100 calories and i have drank 60 ounces so far of water and i walked almost a mile in 40 minutes ...well the time will get better soon...

i have been sick all weekend too with migraines so walking for me was a big thing..but i did it..i was glad i did it too..i feel good now..i really do..i dont know how much i am going to lose each month but at least i will be losing..its a whole lot better than gaining like ive been doing..

i dont know what happened, except i got to where i just wasnt caring ..it was like the pop was my comfort and if i felt the least bit depressed which i did alot of the time, i would end up with reg.pop a 32 ounce reg.pop and i got to where i was eating candy in my room too..i would watch tv at night and i would have twizzlers in my bedroom..sometimes chocolate..so thats a big no no..and i dont mean a bite..

but i started thinking i really want to be thin when i graduate and i will feel so much better walking when i am a 100 pounds thinner and then 200 pounds thnner..cause yes i have 200 pounds to lose..it has too come off or i will be dead sooner than i want to be..

well i will stop til tomorrow..i am going to do this everynight..i am going to be faithful to the blog..and to myself..thanks for the support..

have a great night..
kelli

yea i know its been a long time.

these are just some of the photos i have been taking..visit my website and you will see the rest..

dear friends,

i know i have not even thought about blogging for a while, and i know that is so wrong..i havent watched myself and i even drink the pop..yes i do i drink the reg. pop..i have not tried and all i have to blame is myself..so many people have tried and tried to get me back on track..i know they are tired of telling me things that go in one ear and out the other..and honestly there is no but..i just havent done it..i want to ..no i dont want to or i would be doing it..

i can tell myself all kinds of excuses but its not going to help..i gained back to 330.okay that is where i was when i started this..i lost all the weight for nothing, and now i have it to do all over again..a lot of fun..but i will have to do it..i do have a choice..i could die i guess..do i want to do that..NO! so watching the calories and no more pop and some sort of walking is something i have to do..my sister who has diabetes just got out of the hospital today..her blood sugar had gotten out of control..see she wasnt doing anything either..i dont know why we didnt..i suppose we just didnt care at the time..there are times i get to where i just dont care if i am heavy or slim..i get depressed and i just eat ice cream or i drink alot of pop..and i guess here for a while i have been doing just that..
i have never been told i was actually diabetic, i was borderline a few years ago which means i could possibly get it..but now we have to get busy and get her blood sugar down..now is the time for me to get busy and keep going..i have everyday to do this..as long as im here i may as well take control of what i eat..this blogging is something i need to be doing everyday..i guess i will have more time now..its almost summer..walking weather..i have started a website as well for my photos..im kellidee photography ..im actually at fine art america.com i will put my link on here..hope you stop by and look over my pictures..im selling them as well..and if your on facebook with me i have a fan page too..kellidee photography...
hope you all enjoy the night..
kelli

gotta make this fast..

this is one of the pretty sunsets i have been taking lately, and me and sean last weekend when i had just started the weightloss..

i should be studying right now. i have been putting all my efforts into my studying and not my blogging and i probably should make some time for it. i am doing so much better right now..i have gone to the doctor and got some tests done and hopefully soon will find out why i am in pain..supposed to go to the pain doctor..but i got a double dose strength of a water pill and now i am floating to the restroom..in one week i have lost 17 pounds using this water pill..

of course i am watching what i eat and how much i eat and i am not drinking any pop..i have let go of the pop and am now drinking tea..i eat alot of salads..i know something sean never touched but i like salad..so i am eating alot of that and trying to walk as much as i can at school..i walk about 45 minutes all together to get to class and back to the car..so i walk enough..right now i am in so much pain that it hurts to move around..i am going to therapy again but cant get wrapped again until the 21st of this month..but so far i dont think i have gotten bigger..in fact with the 17 pounds gone it has helped me..

well my days anymore consists of going to school and taking care of mom and taking pictures of anything and everything these days..
i wanted to let you all know i am doing well..im more focused than i have been in a long time..and i appreciate all of you for your concerns and your loyality to my page..

i really better get to studying got to get up early tomorrow..
goodnight and god bless
kelli

im still here..

our winter blizzard, and me outside ..you can tell i have gained the weight in the face..i feel awful..having all the problems like before..

im sorry i havent kept in touch with everyone..im still here everyone..i havent done well though..i ended up gaining 30 pounds back..im back up to 326 now..its awful and i am just not sure anymore no i do know what to do..but for some reason i am just not caring enough to do it..its winter time here .we are in a blizzard right now..and i cant seem to walk but i do have to walk when i am going to class..so i am walking some..

we got thru christmas and now were getting into february...hopefully soon i will be able to really walk outside..but it wont do any good if i keep eating like i have been doing..i didnt mean to worry anyone..i am thankful you all kept watching for me..its nice to know you all are there..i did get back in school this semester.so now i only have 3 semesters to go and i will graduate..my facebook friends know how iam right now.i do keep up with that everyday..i just havent felt like writing for a while..i got off of the whole thing and just didnt concentrate on anything..i am watching it some and i do stay conscious of it but not enough..i hate it too..i really hate it..cause now my legs are back to being bad and i am short of breath and walking hurts all over again..so i guess the only thing i can do is start again..i have to start all over and get back to feeling good again..i really hope i can get to feeling good..i guess walking at school will help.. and when it gets warmer i will go outside..but i am still here and i will try and do this blog everyday..it seemed to help before..

enjoy your journey and stay warm
kelli

merry christmas!

our tree tonight..

hi everyone..i have been so busy lately with christmas that i havent found time to do the blog..but i have been doing pretty good..i was doing really well til the weekend came along..i dont know why but i seem to have problems around the weekend ..

i got to where i was walking twice a day though..i am going to stick with that too because i feel so good when i walk..my legs really feel good..i havent walked today and very little yesterday but tomorrow i will be right back to walking...

i decorated the tree tonight..i know its late but my uncle has been selling real michigan trees and so he brought us one last night..it was a big tree..bigger than i have decorated before...but it was sure pretty..

i have been doing pretty good about the calories too..the last couple of days i didnt too well but i will tomorrow..no more going off..

well i am headed to bed..its late..enjoy this week..its almost christmas..
enjoy the journey
kelli

walking is a big key to success..

me and my brother keith at christmas time when i was a little girl..

well today is another good day..its been nice outside and i decided i cant let go of the walking.i dont want to stop it and then go back to the way i was ..where i just didnt care..i cant do that again...so i went outside with my coat on and put my hat on and walked til i got too tired to do anything else..i ended up walking 2.25 miles before i had gotten too tired..then i decided i needed to rest and go again a little later..so we went and did our errands and then came home a little later for my second go around..

i wanted to match what i had done this afternoon but i ended up doing a mile and a half ..it was just so cold when i got out there the second time, that i couldnt do a whole 2.25..that will just have to wait ..i feel pretty good going out everyday and walking..its when i get done that i feel so pooped i cant stand it..lol but it will get me going..i really believe walking is the main key to this success..

i did well on my food too..i had 1300 calories today and actually thought i wasnt going to be doing well..well we had gone to taco bueno and i got 3 tacos but i love refried beans..i really should have looked at the calories before i ordered but i didnt and so i ate it anyway...well after i looked at it i then counted it up and i had 900 calories in this meal..i couldnt believe it..200 for each of the tacos and 300 for the refried beans..my oh my so i had eaten 1200 by that time..and was now at the amount i needed..so i did well tonight..nothing but a banana and some green pepper..im feeling good now..i feel alive and i feel like i will do this..this is going to happen and i am going to do it now..

enjoy the journey along the way..
kelli

i made 3 and a half miles today..

well i am focused now..this is going to happen and i am going to make it happen..i went out and walked today and it was so nice ..45 degrees and i felt good outside..i decided i wanted to get my 3 miles in but i didnt have enough time to actually do it all at once..so i walked 2 miles in 38 minutes and it felt good..i then went out again about 3 hours later and walked another mile and a half in 25 minutes..i couldnt believe it i had done 3 and a half miles today..i would like to get 3 miles all at one time and may do that by the end of the week..

i am feeling good about this and it seems pretty simple as long as i keep my mind on it..thats what i have to do..i have to have this time to do this for me...this is my health and what i have to do to get it better..its going to take some time but it will happen..

i did well on the calories and it just seems to be easy to do..i dont eat a whole lot but what i am eating now is apples and bananas..focus is the key ..consistency is the key and i am really trying to keep that in my head and i know exercise is the key as well..i have to be able to keep after it and i think i can..im like that little engine that could ..remember that story..i think i can i think i can..lol

well i am going to get to sleep its late..
enjoy the journey
kelli