its getting easier again..

i dont want to look this way again..my picture now is the purple but i will not look like i did before ever again..


today has been a good day despite the fact that we had a earthquake with a magnitude of 5.1 ..it was actually felt around here and that is something that never happens..but its beginning to be different weather for the whole world so who knows what tomorrow is going to bring...

anyway we are okay and everyone is doing good..this was a good day mentally too..i knew i just cant say i am going to do something and do it for 1 day and get off of it..i knew i couldnt do that..if i am going to get healthy and lose this weight ..then i am going to keep doing this til it all comes off..one night isnt going to do it..i got up today and ate the plain yogurt with cinnimon and a banana and it kinda made me sick but it was good anyway...then we went for our ride..for some reason i dont want my mom to get so confused about things that she gets scared..she knows we go everyday and for her she thinks we are supposed to go everyday..now for me i dont have to leave this house everyday..but we do even if its just to ride around..but today my sister wanted to go to ci ci 's and they have a buffet there that is really cheap right now and actually next week is going to be even cheaper..

BUT its the buffet that has the brownies and the cinnimon rolls and the pizza..and i normally cant control myself when i am there..i always end up getting at least 3 brownies and cinnimon rolls and i always get the dr.pepper in the big cups..32 ounces. this is not a good place for me..

but i decided that if i was going in there i wasnt getting the buffet..only the salad bar..this way i couldnt get the brownie or the pizza ..and i only got a small drink and ended up drinking tea without sweetners..so i had 2 plates of salad and tea...that was it ..didnt get one brownie or roll..no sweets at all..i did good..i watched the other people around me stuffing themselves and not realizing it..lol

i like this pizza place because of the nice manager and the salad bar is really good ..and cheap..but the strength of passing up the brownies and the cinni rolls when i could easily have gotten some was the greatest part of that visit..to know i can go in there and be okay with just getting salad and having tea is quite the miracle in itself..i know for a fact that God is giving me strength to keep going on this journey...He has to be..because i just havent had it for myself lately..

when we came home and i ate some mixed veggies and some green pepper ..i then made a bowl of sugar free chocolate pudding..my mom can eat that and that seemed to be something we all liked..i had never actually made it so i learned something new tonight too..that was good stuff..
after that i went out and walked ..i did as much as i could do..i walked almost a mile around the park and then my legs were really giving out on me..so i did about 25 minutes tonight..a little more everyday..so today has been good and my mentality about the food is really starting to work just like sean says..i am watching my carbs and my calories and iam walking..now onto the water ..maybe that will be tomorrow..whoohoo what a difference a few days make in a persons mind...

have a wonderful thursday..
kelli