Saturday, September 25, 2010
im on my way back
me and my momma at charlies today..
i know i have been gone for a week now and thats not good..i felt so good on monday but then i seemed to slip up the rest of the week..i havent gotten started walking yet either and i need to so bad, or i am going to be so swollen i wont be able to walk again..
i know i am doing wrong here..i know i am not treating myself right..this is a choice and i take full responsibility for it..i have ruined this week myself...i want to get back on track and by doing that i have to stop eating the ice cream like i have been..not altogether but everyday yes...i need to stop with the pop..i cant let myself go as george strait sings she let herself go..yea i have and now i am feeling it..i am seeing it too..my chin is coming back at me and i hate that..
is drinking reg.pop so important to me that i end up killing myself..no its not..but i seem to think it is..i seem to put the food and pop way up there on the ladder and i shouldnt..yes we need to eat and drink but not so much we kill ourself..
i havent felt good all week and i am now out of work and looking for a job..so i am stressed but i cant let the stress get to me.i have to put it in a different catagory..it has to be separate...if i dont make it separate ..i will keep doing the same thing over and over again..i cant so that..but i do have to go to the doctor monday..im bleeding in my urine really bad so please pray for me..this has been happening all week long..so i havent felt well..
but i have to start walking again and drinking my water and really watching the calories..i noticed with myself today i didnt even think about how many calories i was having and that is so not good...
i am going to bed now..goodnight
enjoy your sunday..