Monday, July 12, 2010
gettin closer to my 3 miles..
these are pictures from today.. we had some weather that looked bad so God gave us a rainbow to remind Him to not flood us anymore..
here i am tonight after i walked 2 miles and the geese were crossing the road..they were on their way to a picnic..hehe
today was sunday..my day off from work..i only get one day off and today was it..i got up not wanting to go to church..the devil was gettin to me.but i fought back and went.i am so glad i did..i needed the lesson this morning and the preacher was a guest today so it was meant for me to be there..i felt good while i was there and even felt good sometime afterward..but somewhere during the afternoon my mood sorta changed and i didnt feel so great anymore..i wasnt eating my troubles away just depressed...i am finding myself to be more depressed lately and i feel like its up and down alot..i dont know what the deal is except maybe i am a woman and knowing that, i have so many emotions to overcome..
i take a nerve pill which i am so thankful for..a few months ago i was a mess and i dont want to feel like that again..i have noticed i have come along way since then..i am 33 pounds thinner than i was in feb..and most of the time i feel pretty good..i dont cry all the time like i used too..and now if i do cry its not crying for along time, its just a spell every now and then..so i am better..i dont know i think i am still so worried about my money that i dont have, that it makes me depressed..i cant do anything because i have no money..but i have to depend on God and He WILL take care of me ..i know that i just have to have the faith that i say i have..i have to keep believing and knowing that God is going to take care of me and my family..
i didnt do badly on calories today or yesterday..but i havent drank any water today..and thats a no no..i start a water challenge tomorrow with sean and kenz..so i better get to drinking the water again..i did walk last night while i was at work i walked a mile and then i came home and walked a mile..i felt better yesterday for some reason...today i didnt want to walk but i posted it on fb and some girls jumped on me right away and said i better go walk..thanks girls..i did walk even though we were getting ready for a storm..but i guess it blew over cause it hasnt happened yet..anyway i went out and did 2 miles in 42 minutes and still didnt want to walk when i was walking..but i am glad i did..i came in sweatin and burning calories so i did my body good..now hopefully i will get to 3 miles next week..i want to walk the lake soon..alot of people were walking the lake tonight..that was nice to see..
i go back to work tomorrow and another day..
talk to you all later..
feeling the pain..