im back to walking..

i have felt good today..maybe its because i wasnt at work and was busy today..i went to church this morning and the message was a good one..i almost felt like i needed to hear it so iam glad i went..i had been away for about a month, and sometimes it is so easy to fall out of going to church and reading the Bible..i need to make that my first priority over this blog..but i feel good..i know God has a plan for me, sometimes its just hard to keep going and still smile about it, even though iam crying on the inside..i see so many people who get married everyday and some 3 or 4 times in their lifetime and i wonder how do they do it..i cant find one man to marry much less 3 or 4..lol so i get frustrated and impatient and lately this past year or so i get very emotional..i cry for nothing..

BUT IAM STOPPING IT RIGHT NOW..no more crying or whining about not being married or having kids..i know kids and a husband and marriage can be a pain sometimes..but if its such a pain why do so many people do it..? you know you take the good with the bad when your married..and if your not sure of the person your with you take a little longer getting to know him..i almost rushed into a marriage and we are both glad we didnt..but we still care for one another..i dont know that we will ever get married to one another but were friends..

anyway iam just going to focus on what God is telling me and how HE wants me to be..i will focus on getting better and better as kyle says and getting slimmer and slimmer..i hope to be 130 by my graduation which may be later than i thought now..but that gives me more time to get slimmer..lol i am getting faster with my walking now..i walked 2 miles today ..i did the first mile in 93 degree heat and it took me 22 minutes to do a mile..my monitor said i was doing 3 miles an hour..i was smokin..lol then i walked this evening after it got a touch cooler..and i mean it was just a touch..but this time it took me 28 minutes to do a mile..i was walking 2 miles an hour tonight..i guess i was tired..we had a good day today..and my sister and i are doing well watching our calories..i had close to 1300 calories tonight and have been drinking alot of water ..i have had 48 ounces so far and will probably have another glass which is 16 ounces for me..before bed..so today has been good..

i may not weigh til the day before my birthday..just because i get so upset if i gain water weight..so on the 25th we will see if i have gotten under the 300 mark..i would love to see 299..i think that would be a great birthday present..i will probably be writing late tomorrow night..i have to work all day..from 1 to 10 so i am going to be wore out..but i will be drinking my water and trying to walk some if i can..i guess i need to get back to thinking about going to bed now...so you all have a great night..and a wonderful monday..keep it a non pop monday..
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
KELLI