im a floatin...hehe

we took my momma to get her a perm yesterday..isnt she pretty..and she is 83 years young...she acts young for her age..i think its because she had me at 41 and so i kept her young..hehe at least thats what i think..lol

well, the last two days have been like night and day for me..i was doing well yesterday til last night when i ended up in a slight disagreement with my friend on my phone while i was working..so i didnt feel good the rest of the evening, and ended up going to sleep and missing out on my walk last night..i should have walked and blogged, but the way i was feeling i just wanted to sleep..i did well though on my calories and my water for the last 3 days i have been drinking real water, no flavors or anything..just real water..and i have been doing well..i drank all water for the last 3 days..and what i do is drink it all day..so yesterday which was wednesday, i drank 52 ounces of water, and for today i ended up with 78 ounces ..i just kept drinking today and i felt like i was going to float down the river..lol

it feels good to be in control though..something i didnt think i had in me to be in control of how much i eat and drink and what i eat and drink..i just always thought well i am a pop addict and if i drink any pop at all i will just keep drinking..no you dont have to keep drinking..i have found that out...we have dr.pepper in our house, and it doesn't bother me a bit to see it..i know its there and if i want a few ounces then i pour a few ounces in a small glass and count the calories..but the thing is, i never want it..i dont miss it..iam so glad of that..i never thought i would get away from wanting dr.pepper..i never thought i would give up m and m 's..but i dont need them..i dont crave it..i saw it the other day and i bought it and thought i wanted it ..took two bites and got sick..the sweetness is something i dont crave anymore..

i like the water, and now when i go to eat somewhere, i just get water..i love ice water..i went and weighed yesterday..on wednesday to see if the water was working and also to see if the scales i weigh on is the same as the doctors..i had just went to the doctor..ad they were..they weighed me the same..i went down 3 pounds since monday so i was happy..at least i know iam not on a plateu anymore..i just need to drink the water...

i was so much better today..i was busy all day and worked all evening..and i walked tonight ..did a mile after i got home from work..and ate 1300 calories today and of course the water all day..so i am hopefully going to reach my goal of weighing 299 by my birthday..11 pounds to go in one month..i hope to get there..

sean came today and surprised his mom and grandma real big this afternoon..that was a nice surprise.we dont see him alot anymore so its nice when we do..iam trying to figure out what kind of cake i should get for my birthday.iam not sure..i always like chocolate cake but i am thinking pepperidge farm cakes..iam a big chocolate fan but i dont think i have to have it..since i am leaving the m and m's alone iam finding i can control my own cravings..and that is a nice feeling..

well i think i am getting the hang of this now..i have been blogging now for almost 3 months and have been walking for over 3 months..i wish i had a big poundage loss to show for it, but it will come off when its ready too..i just have to keep doing what iam doing and enjoy it everyday..sometimes its a hard thing to do, but thats life..its not supposed to be easy..lol i guess i had better go to bed..its gettin late..
goodnight all
GOD BLESS YOU ALL
KELLI