Wednesday, March 10, 2010
a cold rainy day !
this has been a very cold and rainy day here in oklahoma..we have been going thru tornadoes the last two days and have been lucky that we havent been hit by any...but starting off the day i went outside thinking oh this is such a nice day, and within 30 minutes the clouds turned black and gloomy and it was cold and not so nice to walk in..so i didnt..we had places to go and things to do, as usual but i wanted to get the walk in sometime..so after the running around ended for me about 6pm..i decided i was going to go walk around 630..it was dark and cold and starting to look gloomy..oh my should i walk..? would it be okay to wait another day i asked..NO it wouldnt i said..i cant wait another day ..because if i did that i would wait another day and another..it would just get to where i was no longer walking and walking is something i need to do.something i need for myself...it helps me in more ways than we all realize..its very calming to go out and walk around even if the cats are the only thing i see..
i enjoy walking, and the cold really helps me. i put on my jacket and my ipod and went walking..i did 3/4 of a mile tonight..i am going to try and do one more lap every week..so i dont get laxed in doing just a little bit..i want to be up to 2 miles sometime this summer...oh my this summer..oh how i dread the heat...but i have to walk..i may have to do this in the evening so i will not be too hot..
well my sister and i measured ourselves tonight and we do have along way to go but we will get there..it just takes time..we didnt put this weight on us over night..it isnt going to come off over night either..we have the rest of our lives to keep going..and thats what we have to do..keep going!
iam really enjoying writing this blog..and iam really writing for me..as much as i like to hear from everyone it really shouldnt bother me if people dont comment..because this is supposed to be for me..for my accountability..but for some reason today i kept looking at the blog to see if anyone had posted a comment and i hadnt gotten anyone..for some reason it did bother me and it shouldnt..i dont want to look at this as just a social networking site like i do facebook or myspace..this is my diary and iam letting everyone read it..but it shouldnt concern me if no one comments..because i need this to vent myself..it really helps and maybe i can get my frustrations out..and hopefully we all can help each other along the way..
i have done really well this week.i walked and focused all week so far on how many calories i can have, and i have done well..i dont even think of having a reg.pop or a candy bar..because i know if i truly want one i can have it..i just have to count it..i have to be honest with myself..thats all..honesty is the key..i do need to start on the water..i havent done that yet but i will..i hope you all have a good night..GOD BLESS YOU ALL...KELLI